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The Space in Between

{...the line begins to blur...}

I think there is often some ‘saving power’ left when things go awry.  I obsess of it, especially when I’ve invested my whole being into it’s past.  I think of all the ways I can save it.  I spend hours online looking up flight information, jobs in other cities, the possibility of transferring to other schools.  I think to myself, just how bad would it actually be if I changed my lifestyle again? I wouldn’t die obviously. There are choices to be made, and I can make them.  The saving power is in the action itself, so long as I am able to be able.  And after hours of obsessing, I mentally and emotionally break down, and I realize that I’m possibly fooling myself.  And I shut it all down only to return to the same obsession the next day.  Maybe I’m too full of hope; there’s too much of it.  I’m suppose to take responsibility of actions which sometimes implies simple endurance of a mess.  This is the same line of reasoning that ‘pro-lifers’ tell women who have unwanted pregnancies. They tell them to take responsibility for their actions and deliver their child after 9 months. Now I’m not definitely comparing myself to a pregnant woman.  That line of reasoning just seems to overlap from issue to issue.  It just doesn’t seem clear how we interpret ‘taking responsibility’ in our decisions.  Is it defined as accepting our actions? Or is it defined as taking new actions to correct or alter? Maybe it depends on how much you believe you have or should have control.  I don’t know… I just know that it hurts to have worsened something than it already is/was.  It hurts even more to wake up and officially lose a huge chunk/portion of your overall meaning for waking up. As soon as I woke up, I remembered one of the most important thing I lost. And I’ll remember it tomorrow morning. And the morning after that. And the morning after that…

I’ll never be able to forgive myself.
"It’s not the kind of sadness to where you cry all the time, but more of like the sadness that overwhelms your entire body, leaving you heart aching and your stomach empty. Making you feel weak and tired. And yet, you can’t even sleep cause the sadness is in your dreams too. It’s almost a sadness you can’t escape."
"In general, people are not drawn to perfection in others. People are drawn to shared interests, shared problems, and an individual’s life energy. Humans connect with humans. Hiding one’s humanity and trying to project an image of perfection makes a person vague, slippery, lifeless, and uninteresting."
-Robert Glover  (via hyperdimensionalkittens)

(Source: psych-quotes, via hyperdimensionalkittens)

I’m not really that good in studying philosophy, and I’m probably not that good in anything else either.  

"In conversation you’ve got your vis-à-vis’s last statement— but when you simply ponder, why, your ideas just succeed each other like magic-lantern patterns and each one forces out the last."
-F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned (via mamalovebone)

the-bloodless-arcanist:

I hate having to look for words in my head because everything is just a vague idea of a thing with accompanying vague hand motions.

"Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river which sweeps me along, but I am the river; it is a tiger which destroys me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire which consumes me, but I am the fire."
-Jorge Luis Borges (via fernsandmoss)

(via cosmic-music0)

(Source: katieso, via slimshadysbby)

"Well, I think that when you have a connection with someone, it never really goes away, you know? You snap back to being important to each other because you still are."
-Alex Vause, from Orange Is The New Black (via violentwavesofemotion)

(via bebba)

justingingerlake:

This is so important.

(via lacigreen)

"Just as in earthly life lovers long for the moment when they are able to breathe forth their love for each other, to let their souls blend in a soft whisper, so the mystic longs for the moment when in prayer he can, as it were, creep into God."
-Soren Kierkegaard (via purplebuddhaproject)
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theyoungradical:


Radical simply means “grasping things at the root.” - Angela Davis

Good chance to share some of her talks..
On Feminism and Abolition: Theories and Practices
On Palestine, G4S and the Prison Industrial Complex
 On Political Activism from the 1960s to the Age of Obama
With Noam Chomsky and Vijay Prashad
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"I see it all perfectly; there are two possible situations—one can either do this or that. My honest opinion and my friendly advice is this: do it or do not do it—you will regret both."
-Soren Kierkegaard (via purplebuddhaproject)