the last one.

I’m probably going to stop using tumblr.  In light of recent events, I just don’t see how I can benefit from using this while trying to get my studies done and my life back together again.  I first began using tumblr when she recommended this site to me. Perhaps I need to distance myself from it indefinitely.  There is just so much clutter in my mind.   So this should be the last post.  If anyone still wants to be in contact with me, just message me here and I’ll send you a link to my Facebook profile or something.  Or if there’s anything you ever wanted to know about me, now’s the time to ask.  This is pretty much the point where I stop caring about what I say.  And besides, what is there to tell that I haven’t said yet?

So in the spirit of revealing my deepest and last thoughts without shame, I’ll leave my other blog here that I’ve had for about a year.  It’s kind of anonymous and vague in the sense that no names are never mentioned.

www.being-authentic.tumblr.com

It’s not of much interest to most, and it’s probably just boring to read since it doesn’t pertain to any of my current followers last time I checked. It comes across as rambling and whiny.  But, like I’ve said, I really don’t care anymore.  So I’ll let it all out.  We all love to confess the deepest and quietest of our being.  There’s something about the act of confessing that we all love. Maybe it’s why social media is as strong as it is.  philosophy in postmodernity has something to say about confession.  Tumblr is just an open book to ourselves either in posting original content or reblogging things we were all thinking of as well.  It’s all confession.

Either way, I’ve had my tumblr scheduled to post something like this at the end of the year (this was just in case something had happened to me; my tumblr would post this link in an effort to consolidate my thoughts from tumblr to this profile).   I just keep pushing it back when I get close to reaching this date.  But I guess sooner is better than later now, since I’m over it for now.  

7-20-14

been meaning to post this for a while, since I registered earlier this last week. I’m going to try something different with my schedule this last full semester. all I really need is my seminar, but I need 5 or more units to keep my financial aid. So I figured I’d tackle something a little different and activity-based. dance is one of the few remaining fine arts that I havent tried yet. I’ve taken weight-lifting classes throughout high school and som undergrad, so I picked it because it’s an easy one unit course; basically, I just go the gym to work out. so here it is, my last full time schedule before my thesis.  2014: philosophy and dance

been meaning to post this for a while, since I registered earlier this last week. I’m going to try something different with my schedule this last full semester. all I really need is my seminar, but I need 5 or more units to keep my financial aid. So I figured I’d tackle something a little different and activity-based. dance is one of the few remaining fine arts that I havent tried yet. I’ve taken weight-lifting classes throughout high school and som undergrad, so I picked it because it’s an easy one unit course; basically, I just go the gym to work out. so here it is, my last full time schedule before my thesis. 2014: philosophy and dance

I have this theory that the more important & intimate the emotion, the fewer words are required to express it. For instance, in dating. ‘Will you go out with me?’ Six words. ‘I think I care for you.’ Five words. ‘You matter to me.’ Four words. ‘I love you.’ Three words. ‘Marry me.’ Two words. So what’s left? What’s the one most important & intimate word you can ever say to somebody? It’s ‘goodbye.’ — J. Michael Straczynski

I’m starting to think that it’s always our own subjectivity and emotions that are the key deciders in acting on choices, not our reason and rationality.  Reason, a machine of stability, does not give us meaning; it’s ultimately our own subjectivity.  Perhaps Kierkegaard was right all along.  Perhaps we only use reason to both deliberately avoid certain emotions, as well as use reason to deliberately favor towards certain emotions.  Reason discriminates emotions, but it is ultimately emotions (even the bland emotion of contentment that comes from acting in reason) that are the deciding factor in what we are to be.